Merriam-Webster defines doppelganger as a ghostly double of a living person. However, what is it called when you see a living person as a look alike of someone who is no longer living?
I saw him.
My initial reaction was to jump up and hug him. I let out a loud exhale and my eyes welled up with tears when I realized this person was not my brother. My heart instantly sank and hurt. Also a little angry. Mad the universe took my brother but now angry for this heartless trick of seeing this double.
I noticed quickly the music playing overhead:
My initial reaction was to jump up and hug him. I let out a loud exhale and my eyes welled up with tears when I realized this person was not my brother. My heart instantly sank and hurt. Also a little angry. Mad the universe took my brother but now angry for this heartless trick of seeing this double.
I noticed quickly the music playing overhead:
When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.
It wasn't a mean trick from the universe. When you sleep it's easier for our loved ones to visit us, but how do
they visit when we are awake? Doubles. This was his visit to me while awake.
If you know the meaning behind this song it makes it that much more clear. Paul McCartney wrote this song after a visit from his deceased mother; he dreamt about her. His mother's name was Mary.
If you know my brother you know the significance of "Mary".
As my friend, Dena, likes to say, "You can't make this shit up."
It was my brother paying me a visit, I couldn't have made this up! Too magical.
Why today?
I'm worried about tomorrow. I'm having surgery and being put to sleep scares me. Fearful I won't wake up. His visit was for me to just let it be. Not to be fearful, the universe will comfort and take care of me.
Another reason for the visit...to write this. If you're reading this you must also have needed this message.
He sends his love.
Bibliography
"doppelgänger." Merriam-Webster.com. Merriam-Webster, 2014. http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/doppelg%C3%A4nger. 24 March 2014.
McCartney, Paul. When I find myself in times of trouble Mother Mary comes to me Speaking words of Wisdom, let it be And in my hour of darkness She is standing right in front of me Speaking words of wisdom, let it be Let it be, let it be Let it be, let it be Whisper words of wisdom, let it be. "Let it be." Let it be. EMI. 1970. AZ Lyrics.com. 2014. http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/beatles/letitbe.html. 24 March 2014.
McCartney, Paul. When I find myself in times of trouble Mother Mary comes to me Speaking words of Wisdom, let it be And in my hour of darkness She is standing right in front of me Speaking words of wisdom, let it be Let it be, let it be Let it be, let it be Whisper words of wisdom, let it be. "Let it be." Let it be. EMI. 1970. AZ Lyrics.com. 2014. http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/beatles/letitbe.html. 24 March 2014.